Obsession?

SO, I have been doing this whole watching what I eat thing for a week now, and I must admit that I do feel good; naturally I would when the digits on the scale read two pounds less than last week. Yup, it did feel good. I was proud of myself for "sticking with it."

But how do you 'stick with it' for a lifetime? The fact that eating, food, and calories consume me is enough to drive me ape shit. Food devours my whole day. You see, I am an emotional eater, coupled with the fact that I am an emotional person, and “Houston, we have a problem.” I eat when people come over to visit, when I am having a bad day at work, when I am on the phone, when I am sitting in front of my computer, when I am driving in my car. And, if I am not eating during those times, I am thinking about eating. Fighting against the pull of my steering wheel as my Jeep moves slowly past Tim Horton’s, seems to be a daily occurrence for me. How do I get food off of my mind? I am becoming obsessed with the fact that I cannot eat certain foods…..ugh! It is honestly aggravating, yet at the same time I do want to move forward with my weight loss, I do want to be healthy for myself and for my daughter….I guess I just need to take it one meal at a time and not look at this as a lifelong change. (For those of you reading this, I certainly do understand this is a life-long change, my taste buds, though…they are a different story…..)

I am excited however, that Angela is going to be looking for alternative, healthier menu options for the foods that I love. I really am hoping she will find a menu item for chicken wings…..well, start the clock…in 15 minutes that craving will be gone and I will be moving on to something different. I think I will go brush my teeth. Nothing tastes good after you brush your teeth..right!?!?