Monday, September 24, 2007

An ongoing battle

Do you ever find yourself toying whether or not to "eat it or not?" I mean, I know that my goal is to shed a few more pounds than I have done previously, however, doesn't a chocolate chip cookie taste better than a carrot or another fiber bar? I do want to lose weight and be healthy, not to mention look better in the clothes that I wear....
I always find myself stopping right before I am about to scarf down something not on "the good list," to think if I really deserve it or not. Deserve it?!?!? Does food really fall under a category of "deserving? If yes, then why? Why can't I get past the mentality that if I am going to eat something a bit unhealthy that I have to "earn it..." As if I am earning a grade on an essay or earning a salary...does it make sense? Usually when people earn something it is something good....something you work hard for.... so I guess my thinking is a bit twisted...
"I have eaten good all day, so I will blow it by 'earning' the right to a pound of chocolate..." Twisted. Absolutely twisted.

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